好久好久没有写部落客了

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 at 5:13 PM

今天回来了这里,看回去之前的帖,其实2009的生活还真是苦中带泪,泪中带笑(夸张)

2010的到来,可以说是摆脱了2009的衰运年,其实2009的我还真的一路在走狗屎运....

  • 结束了2年多的爱情长跑,两人变成了最熟的陌生人。
  • 结束了辛苦了超过半年的Colourviews.com社区。
  • 辛苦工作了3个多月的工作,最后还是无法买的梦想的DSLR。
  • 爸妈经济下降,家庭日变少,争吵事件一直吵到2010。
  • 功课成绩下降,时间规划持续退步。
  • 一些朋友渐渐在自己生活中消失,找不到从前的默契。

这句话说得对,

“其实在放弃的背后需要牺牲多少的时间、金钱、精力、用心、鼓励、期待和泪水来一同陪葬...”SiawLei著

但是放弃未必是件坏事,当你学会放下心情 执著 坚持的时候,其实另一个从失败中领悟的你就会在诞生着,随时为了你的人生做候补。

人生最重要就是一个不屈不饶的过程。

2009,是一个凤凰从烈火中去世的狗屎年。

2010,凤凰再次浴火重生,从错误中吸取领悟。

虽然每年都给自己定了一个To do list,但是其中有多少个是真正做到。其实做不做到都没关系,最重要是我已经踏出了第一步,没尝试过, 何来成功,最后只会换来遗憾。

没错,这就是我接下来的To do list. 这次没有那么死板正经,加了很多娱乐元素。

  • 换发型
  • 买云星剧场黄子华楝篤笑的票
  • 继续写Design的Blog
  • 找到一份薪水符合的假期工作
  • 遇到的对象
  • 功课
  • 更清楚知道自己未来的动向
  • 买到属于自己个人的个性DSLR,快一店成为专业的摄影一族
  • 找到属于自己的个性设计
  • 成功设计到一个引己为傲的建筑作品。
  • 多些研究绿化城市,植物
  • 从Blogger赚到一定的月份收入
  • 父母经济
  • 背包旅行
  • 存钱去澳洲
  • …… 一个写不完的list..

好,就是这样。2010虎虎生威

twitter is not enough to write this.

Sunday, December 13, 2009 at 1:04 AM

HATE.. Sohai police who always set d block and making their rasuah money around kepong recently.(3rd saman which hvnt pay back yet)

HATE.. D feedback from Roshidah who any respect to my production.

HATE.. McD, Eating very often recently.

MCH!. (wondering I’m started talking too much rude word, but its a best way to express my feeling)

 

WANT.. The holiday extend to be longer.

WANT.. To travel, but not staying at kepong….kl….

WANT.. to meet a faithful love.

WANT.. to get high!

I’m run out of time.

Monday, December 7, 2009 at 3:59 AM

again. shits happened. I should not go out within these two days. (Hair cut + PC Fair)

Wasted a lot of meaningful time which can let me to finish the final model.

 

Finally back to mood of making a great design. Hopefully I could archive it.

 

 

 

 

Sleepy..

 

But I’m sure that I can make it ^^

 

Progress:

Kitchen 80%.

Living room 10%.

+u+u.

 

2ml going to practice photography in d morning. My last photography practicing is quite a long time - -.

Redbulling.

Friday, December 4, 2009 at 1:00 AM

Recharging stamina for d development. My progress is too slow compared with other classmate. I Need to work harder, accurate and as fast as possible. 8hrs left..

Aim for a better results before my holiday!

Get Started.

Monday, November 30, 2009 at 1:59 AM

Finally living alone in the new room. Really Enjoy the atmosphere here. Lacking of noise which allow me to concentrate my work. It’s GREAT!!

Now going through a project named Mobile Container/Dwelling. It’s an interesting topic which we seldom experience it in Malaysia.

Let show u some mobile container designs done by Adam Kalkin.

Stay turned!

 

Song sharing moment. Watch out this avant-garde mv presented by Lady Gaga, Bad Romance!

Getting worst and worst.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 at 11:10 PM

Today. I failed to attend the presentation day, which is the deadline for my degree’s first space project. For me, this is considered as the serious matter as I never hand in a late submission. I bet the mark will be deduct 60% and I might be failed on this subject.

Something that drives me went to the wrong mind set is I think I lost the patience in doing models and presentation board. Losttttttt the patience in studying and getting good marks.

Son of the bitch, I’m wasting time & money now but I never felt like want to get some changes!

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我是个害群之马…

美好.. 的梦

Monday, September 21, 2009 at 1:57 AM

这个世界是美好的。

 

 

又再骗自己。

 

神曰:为什么你的想法那么悲观的?

 

因为在我人生中缺乏了幸运 =x

 

 

如果人生有cheatcode,我会立刻输入infinity money.

 

然后就会去买Canon 5D MARK 2, LEICA M8, 50+ Lens。

(太喜欢摄影的感觉了)

 

IPHONE 3GS,

(随时上网读blog,google,facebook)

 

自己bakery店,

(好让我每天早上都可以吃营养丰富又美味的早餐)

 

一架直升机和聘请一个驾驶司机

(随时飞去我想去的地方看风景,购物,散心,追伙伴)

 

然后按100亿给老豆老母花。

 

在海底建一个属于自己的海底房子。

 

捐给国际贫穷儿童基金。

 

剩下的钱全部贡献在地球抢救组织,

用在清理河,海,垃圾的费用;

然后把全世界70%的土地种满植物…

 

 

(原来我的愿望还蛮普通的,跟普通人没有分别)

 

接下来会输入Infinity Power,  包括飞行,穿梭时空,阅读人心,快速学习,无限记忆力,有奥运运动员能力的两倍,使人恢复,复活,消失等..

 

(太异想天开了吧!)

 

神叹气的说:“我也想那样子做,但是我的工作只不过是被你们人类念,God Bless You,神啊救救我啊... 我也想休息啊!但是上天却没有给我schedule... 你们人类还有的休息呢。死了后还可以永久的休息!我呢?又不可以死,又不可以露面”

 

还是做回人类比较好,异想天开的东西就放在梦境里吧,

脚踏实地的过这人生,才会了解当中的享受 =)

Failed.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 at 12:28 PM

What could you use a vocabulary word to describe your life?

I could said it’s “Failed” for me.

 

1. I’ve planned to make T-shirt for my friends, but I failed to do it before the dead line I set to myself. FAILED.

2. I’ve created a website for friends with aim and target archivement but feel like its no more points to continue at all, and now just closed it for a long time. FAILED

3. I’ve been promised myself to improve my time management skills. But I’m still wasting my time everyday!. FAILED.

4. I found out that I’m really the one who only know how to talk and won’t go to execute it seriously.. FAILED.

5. I started to be more lazy than the year before. FAILED.

6. I ignored my best friends recently. Even not reply them in sms,msn.. FAILED.

7. I promised to fetch Yvonne back to Kepong but I forgot and recall it when I saw the Plaza Toll.

Stupid dumb, what am I doing.

I don’t think I got the characteristic of being a youngster and I’m still calling myself as Young.

I’m just an old and rusty person right now.

 

Should I go to recharge my batteries? Does it work?

Or I should go and take something to to knock my head like how you doing with a spoiled machine?

Thank you Yong. The one who influenced me a lot recently. I’ve changed my mind and found out my spirit to do something excellent recently just because of him. Although it just a short time chatting with him but I think this is how I should do everyday. Comparing is tired but it will make you to improve yourself.

Young, you should do sth outstanding and make yourself proud of it!.

Yea man, It has been long time I never been proud by my parents.

 

And here I would like to apologize to my friends.

+ Min. (missed to give birthday wishes for her)

+ Qian (ignoring her sms and msn)

+ Qing,Kang,Ding (could accompany them for happy hours)

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爱与恨的之间,唯有默默承受

Friday, September 4, 2009 at 1:46 AM
亲爱的避风港,

我又回来发泄了,
这次不想找朋友谈谈这件事,希望由此写作发泄的方式,来忘记这个连续不断的压力吧。
也希望如果有关心我的朋友,不会在我面前提起这一件事。

午夜刚起身,开始发现爸妈两人都暗示着不爽对方的感觉,虽然他们没有明显地在吵架。
我觉得自己的家庭也许会好过世界上的一些人,但是个人觉得还不是一个完整美好的家庭。
爸爸妈妈都很疼他们的孩子,要什么,有什么,为什么我还不满足呢?
就是因为太爱他们两人,所以每次在他们吵架时,我都不知道要怎么去劝架。我承认有时候自己也会像蛮牛那样的,加入纠纷中,但是经过那一次,我再也不敢从中插手了。那时候我一直以为爸爸都是错的,还帮妈妈去骂爸爸,你有骂过自己爸爸吗?
爸爸,妈妈,从小没有受过什么高等的教育,自小出生于穷困的家庭。妈妈,是个按部就班的人,赚到就存,她不喜欢花钱,不像其他的auntie,有零用的时候还会去shopping,每次如果她有些bonus的时候,都会给他的孩子们花,投资在她的孩子身上。不管家庭经济状况怎么坏都好,她会尽力给予每个孩子们完整的生活。
我真的很感谢上帝,赐给一个那么贤良淑德的母亲给我,但是我却不知道怎么去珍惜!

父亲,从小都是我学习的榜样,他不容易发脾气,疼爱小朋友,虽然只是小学毕业,但是却知识广博。唯一和我相同的地方,就是喜欢求知识,虽然各自领域都不同,但是却抱着同一个求学的思想。
在阴阳的理论下,他当然也有缺点:就是喜欢赌博!喝酒!吸烟!
不管大赌,中赌,小赌,他都有份!
我知道自己不应该这样数自己的父亲,但是我却很生气为什么他一直以来都这样子做!
身为大孩子的我,能够做些什么?! 劝他?逼他?

厌倦了。

我现在可以在国际学院读书,都是因为爸妈在赌博上有些“成就”,
才供的起我去读书。我可以反抗吗?

弟弟最近考spm trial,却没有看他做什么准备,只会天天用我laptop DOTA, 不然用PS2踢球,再不是就和他的女朋友褒电话粥,
我会不心疼吗?

开始觉得自己处陷于不知足的状况,一直在比较…
最近才开始发现原来这种态度是改善生活的一种良好的开始,
有些人因为太容易满足,所以他一世人都没有进步的很多。

我唯一能做的,就是做好我自己,不需去比较别人的生活,继续的沉陷在这个状况中吧…

TMD.


我拿什么奉献给你,我的爹娘!

Faceless

Tuesday, September 1, 2009 at 11:15 PM
如果,每个人都不会戴着的脸孔,那么你才会开始发现什么是善与恶



面孔随时都会随着年龄而改变,唯一不会跟着时间流逝的,是我们的知识和记忆。
向着自己想要的方向出发,继续领悟这个世界的真谛. =)

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